April...proud....

April..you are nearly desperate for us to be proud of you...and you posted once or twice about your progress, BUT...that is NOT enough to be proud about. You are expecting me (and perhaps others) to be proud of you for starting, and posting once. But I refuse. I will NOT be proud of you until you show me that you do this daily, that you do this consistently, and that you post about it steadily. I just will not. As I have said to you privately, and as I tried desperately to explain to mom once privately while she was in Korea, but now I am stating 'somewhat publicly', I have been held to the UTMOST standards for almost 7 years, almost 7 years of daily microscopic observation, if I walk outside, I am judged CONSTANTLY, I am held to IMPOSSIBLE standards, and am stared at, spit upon, and scorned ENDLESSLY. So if you think I will be impressed by doing a couple workouts and posting it once...I WILL NOT! You girls can not imagine what I endure here, and if you truely want me to be proud, you have a LONG ways to go. Sounds unfair? TOUGH! Sounds rude? BULLSHIT! Sounds like I am becoming a dick? GET USED TO IT! I have lived such a hard experience for so long, if you want pride, earn it.