P90X results before and after, My story

more inspiration...from Finland? Norway?? Sweden??? Iceland???? Scandanavia........

P90X Day 120 update

here is where I hope I'm heading...

P90X Final Results Video

this is where I am..the music is perfect...at the epic moment of the battle within my mind...to press play or to quit...if you've never done this, you won't be able to understand the depth and pain involved...

The Wall...

no, not Pink Floyd..there are no lasers here and I'm clearly not stoned. But this is what it looks like...the wall....I'm up against it...flat...no energy, no juice, nothing motivating me to go on...I think my stomach looks the same as when I began two weeks ago...I'm not able to finish the easiest of the DVD's..the stretching (I left 15 minutes for tomorrow)...I'm at the point where, with some really solid, hard working days I could end up 3 days ahead of schedule by this Wednesday...and all I want to do is give up, order a pizza, drink Coke, and say FUCK IT! This is hard..this is very hard to motivate myself every day. Nobody else on the face of the earth right now is pushing for me...3, more likely 2...and honestly only 1 other human being alive is even noticing my posts...and 0 are commenting....this is life...alone...nobody is there for me and nobody has been for 6 years...everything that has come, has been done by my own internal grit...


That might be motivation enough...

Time to quit bitching and dig deep


BRING IT!

And yoga for the trifecta!

Wrapped up my week with a threesome this morning...of the last 15 minutes of Legs and Back, the 16 minute Ab Ripper X, and the first 45 minutes from the Yoga X DVD. Finished them all, but my right elbow is feeling like it needs a brace. Might just be some slight exhaustion and wear and tear from overuse. However, I will try to take care of the Stretch X DVD tonight, then get rocking this weekend with doubles. If I can get two DVD's done each day on Saturday and Sunday, I might be able to get a week ahead next week during my three-day mini-break from the public school job. ( I will still be doing all of my privates, which is about equal to the public school job, if not more...I'd have to stop and add them all up sometime) So...it'd be nice to have a few days in the bank for after the light week as I'm expecting my private load to pick up a bit and steal some of my usual morning and evening workout hours. Looks like I'll be working out late nights again...ugh...


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Legs and Back

My arch-nemesis DVD this morning...but surprise, after reaching my usual cut-off point, I felt like I could keep going. Decided to bag it and save the final 10-15 minutes for tonight or tomorrow morning though. No use over-doing it again this week. I could be up two or even three days if I get working hard through this weekend. Which leads me into next week which will see me having three days off of the public school job. Meaning I could potentially have two or three days during which I could experiment with a fruit juice fast. I'm reading up on it...I really should have been on the ball and pulled the trigger on ordering the 2-day fast product from Beachbody to include in the box you just sent. Would be perfect to not work hard for a couple days, stay home and rest and conserve energy, and fast at the same time in order to cleanse more of my stomach, colon, and other internal organs. Really trying to zap everything in there and maintain my weight, a delicate balance. And hard to 'see' the results of course.

Feel free to share suggestions. Don't be bashful...anything is something...nothing is just that...

Took a night off...

wasn't planned..but I got myself two days ahead and took a breather...

Was back at it this morning with Abs and Kenpo X (martial arts). Stomach is looking tighter..hard to tell and harder to stay so disciplined and spartan with my diet. Really..battling with the mental demons that tell me it won't work, isn't improving, can't be changed...but..my better angels will chase them away. Just you watch...